I am not a follower by nature. I have always been a leader. In group projects, at work, even in board games. I always had to be the one that led the group, team or whatever. I think it comes form my need to have control over any and everything. When I got saved and committed my life to Christ I essentially gave Him the power to lead me wherever he wants to take me in life. Not a bad trade right? My imperfection for God's perfection. Although I have moments where I take the lead and fail miserably I have tried to make sure that I am following wherever God wanted me to go. When I said I do and Jon joined the military I had another reason to let God lead. Being a military spouse these past months have taught me I no longer have any of the control of my life I once had. Following Jon and God for that matter has taken on a whole new meaning. I found a verse this week that helped me realize what I should be striving for... "Lead me in thy truth and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day" Psalm 25:5. Following God requires me to take a backseat to anything that I thought was for the best and enjoy the ride of God's best for my life. Jon will get his order in just about 4 weeks and I am looking forward to at least knowing where the Marine Corps will lead us. One of my favorite artists is Jamie Grace and she sings a song called "You Lead". It accurately sums up everything... Enjoy!
This is so true for me too...I'm all about leading, but unfortunately with Matt in the military it's not an option I get it...it's all dependent on what the Marine Corps, and ultimately God, wants us to do. It's scary but I try to think of it as a feeling of relief instead--I can take a break and let someone else lead! :P
ReplyDeleteDefinitely it's nice not to have to worry about everything sometimes!
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